It seems to be getting worse, and worse.
I think tomorrow is going to be the easiest of all the days of this week. I don't know why in the world everyone seems to be wanting to have EVERYTHING happen on THIS WEEK for HEAVEN sakes, I'm only one human!
I am seriously loosing it. I mean, I don't even know how much sleep I have gotten. I didn't eat much today. GAAH! I'm loosing it.
This is supposed to be the best time of the year. Education is nearing to an end, and people are graduating and moving on, yet, I think this is one of the worse weeks of this year.
One side of my family is upset with me because I am not going to be able to make it to the family reunion, which hasn't happened in YEARS.
They just so happen to plan it on the weekend of State Solo and Ensemble.
OH MAN. I'm going to be at the capital of Texas--Austin, all weekend, and I am leaving at 4 in the morning on Saturday and coming back 9 p.m on Sunday Night.
Free day on Monday, No school.
I think that's when I will sleep.
I hate this. I really do. I guess a majority of it is my fault for getting into all this stuff, but I think that I'm doing a good job just staying alive.
I guess it helps that 2 of my friends and I aren't getting along very well at the moment.
LIFE BLOWS.
I bet the emos are having a better time than I am right now.
By the way Schlitterbahn this weekend at State. Let me just let you know, I am NOT going to enjoy it that well. Maybe.
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Saturday, November 10, 2007
Emergency
Last night I was so worried and nervous.
One of my friends was sent to the hospital from the game we were at, and nobody knew what was causing his sudden pain.
It could have been serious, it could have not been.
We were sitting in the stands, and then he asked me, "Leah, what happens when you are having a heart attack?" I said back, "Well, your left side starts to get numb, and you feel some pressure to your chest.."
Later, his heart started beating a million miles an hour. I wasn't too concerned because he was talking alright, and I figured that he wasn't in too bad of shape.
He began to hold his left side in pain, but it still wasn't too severe; it was bad, but he still could talk. I think he might have been trying to bare it considering where he was.
Then it worsened.. he could not sit up straight. "Zack, was it something you ate? Did you drink something? Are you on some kind of medication?"
"No."
Earlier he had let me feel that spot that was giving him the trouble. "Leah there is a lump.. I think it's getting bigger..."
"Hey you just let me know if it gets too bad ok?"
It got to the point where he could not sit up. He was in agony. His breathing began to get restricted, and his veins began to protrude. "Everytime I breath it hurts." He was holding on the a full bottle of water, and then he busted the top off of it. [He was using it as a pressure ball, but he was in so much pain, the top busted.] I felt so guilty because I had left for a second before all this deep pain started hurting. I came back, and they were taking him down the steps to authorites. They quickly ran and got an ambulance.
I tried to think of the possible reasons why this could have happened, and some other people told me: 'He could have had a gal stone'; 'He could have a kidney stone'; 'He could have a tumor;' 'He could have a cracked rib.'
Out of all of those, I figure that the rib is the best explaination. He was in pain right in his rib area, and then the lump was the shape of a small HARD edge of something. It wasn't in circle form, but it was most likely a rib out of place, or cracked, or twisted. I didn't know for sure, but I was praying to God that it wasn't a tumor.
The word began to spread. People started asking. "What happened to him?" "What's wrong?" "Where's he going?" "Why is he in pain?"
Nobody knew that last one. I didn't know. The medic didn't know. They had rushed him to the emergency room, but there was no way of knowing until they got there.
They kept him in the first ambulance to examine him, until the second one came to take him away. I saw him on a stretcher, and I began to get nervous. I was nervous already, but I didn't know if it was serious or not. Then I saw that, and I was completely out of the game. I didn't want anything bad to happen. What if it was serious? What if he--dies?
But of course, I didn't need to be on edge about this. I would feel so dumb if it wasn't something serious after all. There is just so many possibilities and assumptions that could have been made, but only ONE correct one. I still don't know that one, and won't until they give me a call.
Wouldn't you consider this a serious thing?
I had to go back and get all of his things and take them home with me. People called us to ask what had happened. I was getting angry. Rumors were going to be started over this, I could feel it.
I was worried the whole night, and I am a little right now. Not so much, because I know he will be alright.
That night was the only time I have ever seen him cry...
One of my friends was sent to the hospital from the game we were at, and nobody knew what was causing his sudden pain.
It could have been serious, it could have not been.
We were sitting in the stands, and then he asked me, "Leah, what happens when you are having a heart attack?" I said back, "Well, your left side starts to get numb, and you feel some pressure to your chest.."
Later, his heart started beating a million miles an hour. I wasn't too concerned because he was talking alright, and I figured that he wasn't in too bad of shape.
He began to hold his left side in pain, but it still wasn't too severe; it was bad, but he still could talk. I think he might have been trying to bare it considering where he was.
Then it worsened.. he could not sit up straight. "Zack, was it something you ate? Did you drink something? Are you on some kind of medication?"
"No."
Earlier he had let me feel that spot that was giving him the trouble. "Leah there is a lump.. I think it's getting bigger..."
"Hey you just let me know if it gets too bad ok?"
It got to the point where he could not sit up. He was in agony. His breathing began to get restricted, and his veins began to protrude. "Everytime I breath it hurts." He was holding on the a full bottle of water, and then he busted the top off of it. [He was using it as a pressure ball, but he was in so much pain, the top busted.] I felt so guilty because I had left for a second before all this deep pain started hurting. I came back, and they were taking him down the steps to authorites. They quickly ran and got an ambulance.
I tried to think of the possible reasons why this could have happened, and some other people told me: 'He could have had a gal stone'; 'He could have a kidney stone'; 'He could have a tumor;' 'He could have a cracked rib.'
Out of all of those, I figure that the rib is the best explaination. He was in pain right in his rib area, and then the lump was the shape of a small HARD edge of something. It wasn't in circle form, but it was most likely a rib out of place, or cracked, or twisted. I didn't know for sure, but I was praying to God that it wasn't a tumor.
The word began to spread. People started asking. "What happened to him?" "What's wrong?" "Where's he going?" "Why is he in pain?"
Nobody knew that last one. I didn't know. The medic didn't know. They had rushed him to the emergency room, but there was no way of knowing until they got there.
They kept him in the first ambulance to examine him, until the second one came to take him away. I saw him on a stretcher, and I began to get nervous. I was nervous already, but I didn't know if it was serious or not. Then I saw that, and I was completely out of the game. I didn't want anything bad to happen. What if it was serious? What if he--dies?
But of course, I didn't need to be on edge about this. I would feel so dumb if it wasn't something serious after all. There is just so many possibilities and assumptions that could have been made, but only ONE correct one. I still don't know that one, and won't until they give me a call.
Wouldn't you consider this a serious thing?
I had to go back and get all of his things and take them home with me. People called us to ask what had happened. I was getting angry. Rumors were going to be started over this, I could feel it.
I was worried the whole night, and I am a little right now. Not so much, because I know he will be alright.
That night was the only time I have ever seen him cry...
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Slide.
And so, it came in the mail today.
Actually it was sitting in my front yard when I got home, but that is beside the point. I was so happy. I think I might have even jumped a little bit.
This phone was shocking to me because I thought it was going to be something greater. Don't get me wrong, it rocks my socks harder than sliced bread, but it was sad because it didn't come with all the things I needed for it to own.
Sadly, I had to make a trip to RadioShack, and decide on which appliance I needed the most--USB Cable, or Sandisk.
Sandisk: Give the phone extra memory storage for mp3s, video, photos, and more.
USB Cable: Gives the phone a connection to the computer for file transfer.
Uh Oh, which one?
I got the Sandisk because I could not record videos without it. I will just have to hook myself up the the cable later.
Today was a SAT day, and I was feeling like an eskimo. It was so cold in my testing room. I could have sworn I had turned into two ice cubes.
Zach accompanied me to church tonight.
My earaches have been on the move; today I got them along with sore throat, but I got some Halls cough drops which eased it out.
Thank you God.
Yesterday was killer. We had UIL, and I had a very heavy head. At least it felt like a thousand pounds because of all the pressure I had from my sickness.
Got home late.
Went to bed late.
The usual.
Actually it was sitting in my front yard when I got home, but that is beside the point. I was so happy. I think I might have even jumped a little bit.
This phone was shocking to me because I thought it was going to be something greater. Don't get me wrong, it rocks my socks harder than sliced bread, but it was sad because it didn't come with all the things I needed for it to own.
Sadly, I had to make a trip to RadioShack, and decide on which appliance I needed the most--USB Cable, or Sandisk.
Sandisk: Give the phone extra memory storage for mp3s, video, photos, and more.
USB Cable: Gives the phone a connection to the computer for file transfer.
Uh Oh, which one?
I got the Sandisk because I could not record videos without it. I will just have to hook myself up the the cable later.
Today was a SAT day, and I was feeling like an eskimo. It was so cold in my testing room. I could have sworn I had turned into two ice cubes.
Zach accompanied me to church tonight.
My earaches have been on the move; today I got them along with sore throat, but I got some Halls cough drops which eased it out.
Thank you God.
Yesterday was killer. We had UIL, and I had a very heavy head. At least it felt like a thousand pounds because of all the pressure I had from my sickness.
Got home late.
Went to bed late.
The usual.
Sunday, September 30, 2007
Crackers!
Yum, I ate some delicious crackers today.
Can crackers be delicious?
So, I am so sore from Friday night. It was after the football game, and some friends and I decided to be stupid and race up and down the aisles of the Room. I don't think I could remember the last time I ran that fast. I was on the tips of my toes as I sprinted up and back down the rows. I wasn't exhausted either. It wasn't a hard sprint, but later I started to feel it.
Like today.
I didn't feel anything yesterday. Saturday. I think it was a nice day yesterday. I was at home, and I talked to Pastel for about 1987235060348572034 years.
But oooh, this morning.
I felt it.
I was so sore. I went to sleep on the floor by accident, and then I woke up in the middle of the night, and went to bed. When I got up this morning, my legs and abs, felt like they were bleeding.
OH the agony!
It was difficult to laugh, and I love to do that, so you know how it must have felt.
I went to Church today, of course, and I had a nice time. After, I went to 'Ryan's' with the family and a friend of the family. I ate some good food :D
When I got home, all I wanted to do was lay down. I think I looked pregnant again, because my stomach was sticking out so far. I thought it was going to explode.
PASTEL. Again. Today I learned my Hungarian numbers :D
1: Edy
2: Kettő
3: Harom
4: Negy
5: Öt
6: Hat
7: Hét
8: Nyolc
9: Kilenc
10. Tiz
11. Tizenegy
12.Tizenketto
13. Tizenhárom
14. Tizennégy
15. Tizenöt
16. Tizenhat
17. Tizenhét
18. Tizennyolc
19. Tizenkilenc
20. Húsz
21. Huszonegy
30. Harminc
31. Harmincegy
40. Negyven
50. Ötven
60. Hatvan
70. Hetven
80. Nyolcvan
90. Kilencven
100. Szaz
Now I just have to memorize them :D
This week went by so fast! It is already Monday again. Then it will be next Monday. Then Christmas. You just wait. See? It is already October! Today is the last day of September.
Saturday, I felt so go about myself. I worked on my Spanish. I hadn't done that in a long time, so I decided to work some, and it was worth it.
Can crackers be delicious?
So, I am so sore from Friday night. It was after the football game, and some friends and I decided to be stupid and race up and down the aisles of the Room. I don't think I could remember the last time I ran that fast. I was on the tips of my toes as I sprinted up and back down the rows. I wasn't exhausted either. It wasn't a hard sprint, but later I started to feel it.
Like today.
I didn't feel anything yesterday. Saturday. I think it was a nice day yesterday. I was at home, and I talked to Pastel for about 1987235060348572034 years.
But oooh, this morning.
I felt it.
I was so sore. I went to sleep on the floor by accident, and then I woke up in the middle of the night, and went to bed. When I got up this morning, my legs and abs, felt like they were bleeding.
OH the agony!
It was difficult to laugh, and I love to do that, so you know how it must have felt.
I went to Church today, of course, and I had a nice time. After, I went to 'Ryan's' with the family and a friend of the family. I ate some good food :D
When I got home, all I wanted to do was lay down. I think I looked pregnant again, because my stomach was sticking out so far. I thought it was going to explode.
PASTEL. Again. Today I learned my Hungarian numbers :D
1: Edy
2: Kettő
3: Harom
4: Negy
5: Öt
6: Hat
7: Hét
8: Nyolc
9: Kilenc
10. Tiz
11. Tizenegy
12.Tizenketto
13. Tizenhárom
14. Tizennégy
15. Tizenöt
16. Tizenhat
17. Tizenhét
18. Tizennyolc
19. Tizenkilenc
20. Húsz
21. Huszonegy
30. Harminc
31. Harmincegy
40. Negyven
50. Ötven
60. Hatvan
70. Hetven
80. Nyolcvan
90. Kilencven
100. Szaz
Now I just have to memorize them :D
This week went by so fast! It is already Monday again. Then it will be next Monday. Then Christmas. You just wait. See? It is already October! Today is the last day of September.
Saturday, I felt so go about myself. I worked on my Spanish. I hadn't done that in a long time, so I decided to work some, and it was worth it.
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